Your Inner Wisdom Is Screaming To Be Heard

How many time has it happened to you that you knew what was best for you? Despite everyone else saying otherwise? Then you get super pissed or enraged because you knew what was going to happen if only every one had listened to you? This was my story for years, I would always ask other people what they thought before I’d make a decision. Then by the time it was time for me to make the decision I was even more confused because I had allowed too many different voices in my head.

Then when it did come time that I knew what I needed to do, everyone would give me their two cents because I had already trained them to be this way. This would then lead to further conflicts because I didn’t want their opinions when I knew what I needed to do! Looking back I can honestly say that everything I have regretted in my life is because I didn’t listen to my own inner voice and intuition. Because truth is, you always know.

For instance, I am on this journey of growing my priestess mentoring, this is what is being called of me right now and my spirit team is backing me up on this. However, my mom keeps bringing up why I haven’t gotten job yet, but my soul and body know that it is not the way. I have been looking and nothing so I am taking this as sign that life has cleared the path for me to be a working witch, priestess and indie artist. But my mom keeps pushing the issue and because she’s had a life of nothing but hard work and struggle she can’t comprehend there being another way.

So last night I had a dream with my mom, my younger siblings (btw I am the youngest) all in my dimly lit apartment at night. Outside the sliding glass door there was a blue speckled cobra (didn’t even know they existed until I had this dream). My mom was insisting that I use a broom to push it away and I kept telling her. “we just need to leave it alone and it will go away.” Instead, she insisted that I take a broom and push away, which only lead to it coming inside my apartment.

Needlessly to say, I was fucking pissed! Cause none of this would have happened had they listened to me! Now everyone is freaking out and the cobra has disappeared, so I am on the couch trying to call animal control but I can’t see because my phone’s screen is black. Then, I hear it hissing behind my back, so I am trying to get away and then my brother grabs my legs and carries me on his back, behind his head. Now I am enraged because he’s oblivious that the cobra is behind me and he is moving fucking slow! I can hear it coming up behind me and then I woke up.

So I went on about as I usually do in the mornings, followed by my daily guide meditation. Guess who showed up in my meditation? Medusa, she has come and go and has mainly cleared negative attachments to my field but today she was annoyed that I haven’t chosen to actually work with her yet. She even told me that it was her who sent me that cobra dream. So what does this all have to do with the inner wisdom of your intuition?

In the dream I intuitively knew that all we needed to do was to leave the cobra alone. If we left it alone, the cobra would go away but instead my mom insisted and pushed me into pushing the cobra which led to a worse situation! Then the cobra also became a symbol of me, since snakes represent the scared feminine. That cobra just like me, was pissed for having its boundaries disrespected. So why did Medusa send me this dream?

Well she knew it would get my attention and she’s the strongest archetype when it’s comes to having your boundaries crossed. Medusa was raped in Athena’s temple by Poseidon and then punished by Athena like it was her fault? She shows up because you may have gone through something similar, not necessarily rape but having your boundaries crossed. I have had my boundaries crossed one too many times by good meaning people.

She gifts you the gaze that is a hard stop when people try to push you around, especially when you know what’s best for you. Funny, now that I look back. Medusa’s been hanging since I was in grade school. The boys would make fun of me and call me Medusa because they thought I was ugly they’d say “ don’t look at her she’ll turn you to stone”! How I wish I could go back and tell my younger self that I should have embraced that power they were unbeknownst giving to me!

It’s so crazy to think how back then I did have a certain gaze that would freak people out, especially when I was enraged! My own and mother and father would yell and tell me to stop looking at them like that! Over time I learned to soften that gaze to appease the Patriarchy. So now Medusa’s here to help me remember these traits I had repressed, to make others more comfortable. These traits were actually her gifts. She’s now here to help me remember to honor that inner wisdom and have strong non negotiable boundaries when it comes to my inner wisdom. Maybe that’s what you need to do to.

A little shadow work prompt for you today, think when did you recently let someone impose their will upon you? Have you made it absolutely clear that you will not tolerate them crossing your boundaries? And if they do cross those boundaries, that there will be consequences?

The wisdom of our intuition is so sacred and it is a muscle that gets stronger the more you learn to work with it and hone it. Don’t let anyone take that gift away from you by filling you up with self doubt or worse by imposing themselves upon your boundaries! Until next time, stay fiery demons.

With Love,

Jiana Wessel - You Dark Priestess and Indie Artist