Dear: Dragon,
I have now entered in to the timeline I was trying to avoid. I am being threatened with eviction. However, there was a painful but beautiful lesson in all of this. I was trying to come up with the money from a place of desperation and scarcity. Although the scarcity is real, like I barely have $200 in my bank account LOL! This is no place for me to operate from. I work with the wise and powerful Dragons, as well as the Dark Goddesses and they want and expect better of me.
I realize now that I had been death gripping, this whole situation because I really wanted to make it work and I really wanted to keep my home. However, when every door you try to open shuts in your face, the universe is telling you something. It’s time to move on. Of course I fell in love with California but not the hustle of it all. From the moment I got here it was hit the ground running, just to pay rent.
This lead to another season of not being able to do what I love such as making more music! But it was better than Vegas, so I wanted to make it home. I wanted to stay. But then the underworld began the stripping. First I was stripped of my energy and time being stuck in a job that physically abused my body, and drained me, then we lost our car in a total loss accident. Then our free time got stripped because we were always having to take the bus and trolley and spend 2.5 hours just to get to work, work 10 hours, then another 2.5 hours just to get back home!
But I kept white knuckling and death gripping trying to make it all work here, because it’s beautiful. Until finally, my back gave out and I got put on an unpaid leave of absence. Shortly after, my husband got pushed out too, then came the emergency. Oh my god we gotta come up with rent, but I now see the gift in all this. We weren’t meant to stay here. I need space, not hustle to work my music, my magic, my medicine.
San Diego dejecting me is a bittersweet but beautiful thing. So although I know that I still need to make money, I gotta do it from a place of honor. I know that me being a priestess isn’t for everybody, I’ve only just started sharing this huge part of myself recently. However, I do need to manifest 22k to move to the PNW where my heart has always told me I belong. To make this happen I am once again opening the gates to my Throne container, however I only plan to take on a limited number of people. And most importantly, it needs to feel soul aligned for the client and myself.
So if you’re feeling called, I have a link for you to 👉 apply for The Throne container and see if we’re a good fit for each other. If you feel it in your gut that this container is for you, you can also find The Throne container by clicking the link 👉 here. If you’re feeling called to do this work I will see you inside.
With Love and Fire 🔥
Jiana Wessel