When you embark on the journey of embracing your dark feminine (dark goddesses, internals and Dragons) and reclaiming your sovereignty, you will be tested at times. Just yesterday, during the solar eclipse in Leo on the south node, I was tested. Was it a coincidence? (No, this literally was a purging of what no longer served me on my soul path). Yesterday, the lawyer I had working on my civil case with Amazon called me to tell me that they were dropping the case. Why? I wasn’t there long enough for them to fire me.
You see my work man’s comp case moved so fast, and I had to sign papers promising to separate myself from Amazon to get my settlement. So of course, I took the offer and said goodbye and good riddance to Amazon! Good riddance to the company that refused to accommodate my back injury and put me on an unpaid leave of absence that lead to my family almost going homeless! So because I didn’t stay with Amazon until they fired me, they could no longer pursue the case.
Do I regret this decision? Hell no! I now live in Oregon among the forests and the trees and have never been happier or more fulfilled! I would have had to stay with a company that was abusing me and was going to further injure my back! Would it have been nice to have that extra money? Of course but not at the cost of my health and sovereignty.
Can you imagine? What would Lilith do? She would have flown away and never looked back. She would have built her own kingdom and throne and become the Queen in her own world. I could hear the dark goddess and mother of demons speaking to me and saying “have I not taught you anything?” And of course she has.
I told the lawyer thanks for letting me know, hung up and I felt relieved! Relieved because this chapter of my life is now officially closed forever. I no longer have to carry this dead weight of Amazon with me anymore. This brutal initiation I had to go through solidified me as a dark priestess and the heaviest part of it is now over.
See, Lilith guided me through my own time of exile and helped me move out to a place of wilderness where I literally now have a nature preserve in my back yard! Because part of reclaiming that wild, dark feminine is also reclaiming our relationship with the wild. So by reclaiming my power and standing strong in my sovereignty I finally got the life and environment I had been dreaming of for so long.
So keeping in mind that yesterday was the Solar eclipse in Leo on the south node, what did you purge or let go of? Was there anything that you were forced to say goodbye to? Or is there something you’re still holding on to that is blocking you from your true path? If you could embody Lilith in her rawest, most feared from, the demoness and ask yourself what would you do if you were deciding from the unleashed Lilith inside of you?
Spend some time with these questions. Journal with them. Let whatever comes up, come up no matter how uncomfortable. This is Lilith helping you face your shadow and integrate it for the most self actualized version of yourself. If you want to go deeper and unleash the Lilith within you, click 👉 here to become UNLEASHED, and get to know Lilith in a way you never have before. Until next time.
Love,
Jiana Wessel, Your Dark Priestess and Indie artist.