While one might think from first glance that life looks good for me, looks are deceiving. On one hand I have reached over 97K people on Instagram last month, since deciding to bare myself as a Witch and Priestess. Yet, I am here wondering how I will get through it with only $13 in my bank account. Being a Priestess of Dragons, the underworld deities and internals is not for the faint of heart, all while living on your Pluto astrological line that is literally stripping everything away from you.
I chose this, I chose this painful and excruciating exile when I stood up to Amazon and chose my sovereignty over their abusive work relationship. Either I chose my health or I would sacrifice my health for pennies that were already causing me to be late on rent monthly. So they put me on an unpaid leave because they denied my medical accommodation for my back. By doing so, I fell two months behind on rent and am now fighting an eviction summons.
I have been exiled like Lilith, but also like Lilith I chose this exile. I chose my sovereignty over an abusive employer. I have gone into the wilderness. I have been stretching my money as much as possible making sure my pets/babies always have what they need to eat. I am of course referring to my cat, my dog, my snakes and the two rats. They are my world and the thought of losing them in the middle of this housing crisis and financial storm is a lot to bear.
I am not a victim because I chose my sovereignty over a future where I would need to get metal rods placed in my back because Amazon severely injured my back. It was a tough choice to make, but also the only choice I could make as a devotee of Lilith. This is what the price of sovereignty looks in our modern day world. It is being stripped of everything that made you feel safe, secure and comfortable. The only things that right now feel real and stable are my pets and my husband who’s been rock through all of this.
But there are the stories of sovereignty we don’t hear enough of. The woman who left an abusive marriage and therefore lost her community and even her family. The woman who stood up to an abusive parent and had to go form her own family after. The woman who stood up and exposed her rapist and therefore got exiled from her church or supposed spiritual community. This is the price of sovereignty that not a lot of people talk about or even mention. It is not an easy path or road but it leads to your ultimate freedom and liberation.
As this moment, I don’t know what will happen. I don’t know if I will lose all my pets and familiars in this situation. I don’t know if we will be able to have the money we need to move to Oregon by the end of this month. I don’t know if we’ll be able to move fast enough to beat the court date. I don’t know if I’ll be able to get a job that will help us relocate or live on site this month. I don’t know if we’ll end up homeless.
All I know is that I am committed to this path of sovereignty. This devotion to unleashing the Lilith within me, every day as I navigate this situation. I am committed to being a Priestess of the dark mothers, Dragons and the underworld. I am committed to helping you find the light through your darkness as I navigate mine.
If you have found value in the work I do as a Priestess or Indie Artist, feel free to buy me a Witch’s Brew on my Ko-Fi. And if you’re ready to unleash your inner Lilith click the button below to become UNLEASHED!
Your Priestess and Indie Artist,
Jiana Wessel